sometimes I feel like a small child on a road trip. I am continually asking my Heavenly Father questions such as “how much longer?” or “are we there yet?” or “is this it?”, only to be disappointed each time as the trip continues with no end in sight and no definitive or satisfying answers to my questions. I am left to wait and to wonder as I continue my journey of faith by following the path He leads me on each day. I can’t see or know what lies ahead for me, which causes me worry and anxiety. It’s the not knowing that is so unsettling for me.
These words are ever present in my mind, “For we are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” (Ephesians 2:10) WOW! I have been created for a purpose (destiny) and God has already prepared things for me to do in advance! Now you can begin to understand why I have these questions about my life’s journey. I’m not just starting out in life like a child is. So why am I still asking these childlike questions?
Sometimes I feel like I haven’t arrived at my destiny yet, the purpose for which I was created. I am still searching for it. Do I even know what it is? What it will look like? Do I not recognize it? So I continually ask my Heavenly Father as we travel together, “is this it?, is it this?” – as I try different ways of making a difference in this world. I feel like I’m on hold much of the time, still waiting to see many of my prayers fulfilled. As I wait, I find myself continually questioning – “how much longer?”, just like the child in the back seat of the car on the road trip.
Like the child on the family road trip, I don’t want to miss out on anything and I’m in a hurry to get there. (wherever there is) Likewise, I don’t want to miss out on anything God has prepared for me to do and I don’t want to miss anything along the way that He might want to show me or to teach me. I don’t want to be so focused on searching for my purpose or my destiny that I miss out on the beauty and the joy of my journey.
Still, I find myself asking God, “am I there yet?” and “I didn’t miss it, did I?”. (whatever it is) Did my disobedience or blindness or hardheartedness or selfish busyness cause me to miss what You prepared all along for me to do? I am very much the child on this road trip that is my life, traveling with my Heavenly Father in the driver’s seat. And that revelation alone should put all my anxious questions to rest. God is sovereign. He is driving. He’s got this!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths.” (Proverbs 3:5-6)
He knows the way – He is the Way!
“being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 1:6)
God will make sure I arrive at my destination -the destination He prepared for me.
“And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.” (2 Corinthians 9:8)
those good works that God prepared in advance for me to do – (Ephesians 2:10)
This road trip I’m on has had and will continue to have twists and turns and molehills and mountains (and potholes) and rivers and deserts but with the Lord as my driver, as my shepherd, He leads me . . .
“He makes me lie down in green pastures, He leads me beside quiet waters, He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” (Psalm 23)
sincerely, Grace Day