Some people collect shoes, others belts or maybe hats? For me it seems to be bags – not purses or handbags but bigger actual bags. I have discovered that I have no shortage of bags. Quite the opposite. I have all kinds of bags. I have bags of various colors and designs, fabrics and sizes. I have no idea how I have ended up with so many bags. I believe it may have started with a few canvas tote bags and grown from there. I did not set out to collect them, but now I have them, nonetheless.
This begs the obvious question – just how many bags does one woman really need? Probably just one assuming it is a good all-purpose sized bag. Ok and then another bag for back up, so two? Actually, a bag for each season would be prudent, so four? And what about the need to color coordinate my bag with what I’m wearing? – that will require multiple bags. And what if I need to bring more stuff with me on some days than on others? This means I need to have bags of multiple sizes on hand as well as bags of multiple colors and designs.
Maybe I will become like the TV character, Elsbeth. She is a detective of sorts, very fashionable, always wearing bright colors. But her distinguishing fashion feature is that she is always carrying multiple large bags with her wherever she goes. These are noticeable because they are so large and because she always has more than one bag with her. I find myself wondering, what exactly does she keep in all those bags? They don’t seem to slow her down, rather the bags are a part of who she is. They actually end up defining her character in a way. Elsbeth is the bag lady, but just how many bags does one woman need anyway?
Apparently, I need to ask myself the same question – how many bags do I actually need? Especially since, unlike Elsbeth, I only carry one bag at a time. (at present anyway) I’m thinking maybe the reason Elsbeth carries all those bags with her everywhere is because she suffers from a deep seated fear akin to FOMO (fear of missing out), however, this fear is FONHWINWINI. Translation – “fear of not having what I need when I need it.” Solution – carry everything with me at all times. That’s what Elsbeth does and it seems to work for her.
But it must be exhausting, not to mention cumbersome and inconvenient, to carry so much around with her at all times. I know one bag at a time is all I can manage presently with any degree of success. So perhaps the antidote to my FONHWINWINI is not carrying around with me yet another bag full of stuff, but instead relying on the promise of someone I trust – namely my Heavenly Father. He has an impeccable track record when it comes to providing for those He has created, including you and me, we who are created in His image. The apostle Paul experienced God’s provision in his every circumstance and wrote these words –
“And my God will meet all your needs according to His glorious riches in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 4:19)
In Psalms I read this –
“The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made. . . . The eyes of all look to You, and You give them their food at the proper time. You open Your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing.” (Psalm 145:13-16)
I can’t possibly carry enough bags with me at all times to ensure that whenever the need arises for a particular item, I will have that item with me. Even Elsbeth, with all her big, colorful bags, doesn’t have everything with her at all times. There is a physical limit to just how much I can carry with me at any given time. BUT – God has everything I need and more in the palm of His hand! I have this assurance-
“And God is able to make all grace abound to you, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.” (2 Corinthians 9:8)
I guess I really don’t need all of these bags after all. God is my ultimate provider and He is faithful. No matter how many bags I carry with me, they will never be able to hold “all” that I need. God’s “mercies are new every morning” just like the manna He gave the Israelites while they were in the desert was new every morning. (except for the Sabbath) God is able to provide food in a desert and even a feast in a valley of death filled with danger and full of enemies . . .
“Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” (Psalm 23:4-6)
An overflowing cup and a table full of food right in the middle of dire circumstances. Only God Almighty, our gracious and loving Heavenly Father, could and would do such a thing. And He does. Day after day He cares for me, instead of treating me as my sins deserve.
“He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him; for He knows how we are formed, He remembers that we are dust.” (Psalm 103:10-14)
Perhaps Elsbeth has gone a bag too far and maybe I have also. Time to let go of some bags. I don’t need all of them. Actually, I don’t need any of them. Jesus made this clear when He said this –
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. . . . Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? . . . And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry . . . For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” (Matthew 6:25-34)
Maybe it’s time for me (and Elsbeth and you too, dear readers) to stop carrying around so many big bags and instead trust our Creator to carry us –
“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you.” (Isaiah 46:4)
sincerely, Grace Day