Today’s dilemma

I’m holding it together today, Lord or more accurately I’m holding myself together for now.  Please don’t ask me to humble myself just yet Lord, couldn’t I wait just a little longer?  If I really pray to you I have to let myself be broken once again and that hurts, Lord.  You know that it does.  I have to trust that You will put me back together again, like all the other times, like You always do, but the process is so painful.  Today I want to avoid the pain.  At least for a little while.

Do I have to die to self again today, Lord?   I know it is the only way,  the only way to experience Your resurrection power working in me, as You bring me back to life once again, the life that You have called me to live.  Each time I let go, each time I stop trying to hold it all together myself;  it is then that my fear surrenders to my faith in You.  I trust all over again that You will put me back together when I humble myself, broken before You. I trust, just as I did that very first time, that You will bring me back from death to walk in life with You for another day when I obey You and die to myself again.

I know Lord, You would want me to remember that You have always been faithful.  You heal my brokenness each and every time that I bring it to You.  Your resurrection power prevails in me each day that I die to this world.  Your faithfulness will continue.  This I know.  So help me, again today, to stop trying to hold myself together, help me instead to let go and in faith let You alone hold me, Lord Jesus.

And thank you Lord, for knowing that You and I will go through this process maybe more than once today and certainly again tomorrow and the day after that and the day after that for as long as I live.  Thank You for knowing and for understanding, for having compassion on all You have made, including me.

“being confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”  (Philippians 1:6)

“and His incomparably great power for us who believe.  That power is like the working of His mighty strength, which He exerted in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly realms,” (Ephesians 1:19-20)

sincerely,                 Grace Day





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